that ONE room

as a girl growing up, we had a room in our house that was OFF LIMITS to everyone.  it was so unused that you could see the sweeper marks across the carpet, knowing exactly where that sweeper had gone.  NO, there was no plastic covering on the furniture, which kind of surprises me.  i can remember sitting on the two steps that led down to this room, thinking why are we not aloud in here.  as soon as my mom saw me NEAR the room, I was reminded of how this room was not to be entered. 

as my mind remembers this moment, I wonder if we don't have OFF LIMIT rooms ourselves.  are there areas in our lives that no one can enter, that the Lord can not have to control.  i have been studying about Adonai.  the study talked of how we can not now our God as the All-Sufficient One, El Shaddai, unless we bow our knee to Adonai, the Lord.  in bowing our knee to Adonai, we hand over everything. 

when I bowed my knee to Adonai, it was after I had come to know Him as Savior.  since coming to the Lord later in life, i came with a lot of baggage, sin baggage that is.  it was DIFFICULT for me to tell other believers about my struggles.  i didn't want them to think the wrong way about me.  so i set up an OFF LIMIT room in my heart, i kept it neat and tidy, and made it look like everything was GOOD in my life.  what happened was this facade of a neat and tidy life ended up being my downfall.  how can you conquer sin when you are not willing to admit that it is there?  how can you be victorious when you don't see the battle within?  the consequences for my sin could not be hidden, so I had to deal with my OFF LIMITS room.  That is when I bowed my knee to Adonai.  

life for me is different now, i have no OFF LIMIT rooms.   my weaknesses are God's strengths, my errors are God's grace in action.

do you have an OFF LIMITS room?  have you bowed your knee to Adonai?